But in this post I will be talking about the two women who made the biggest impact in my life, my mother Marta, and my Grandmother Rina. They have taught me so much about life, but most importantly they have taught me to be fearless. My grandma came into the United States from Colombia as a single mother of four children, one of them being my mother. My mother was her only daughter, and her youngest. Lets just say she was trying and trying until she got herself the girl she always wanted. My grandmother put fear of failure to the side and decided to take a huge leap into a world she knew nothing about, so that her children could live better as Colombia was going through many challenges with their government, and FARC. She knew it was best to leave the life she had known forever, to give her children the chance to have better opportunities in the US. She knew she was going to face tough obstacles, and she was going to have to do it alone, but she did it anyway.
My grandmother was such a hardworking person. She worked long hours, and though she was very tired at the end of the day she made she all of her children were fed, and everything in the home was running smoothly. She worked for the same company for many many years, and put her all into the job she was given. Not once did she make excuses for herself, or lose sight of the reason why she made the choices she made. I take so much pride in saying that she is my grandmother, and she is one of the most strongest and most beautiful woman I know, and love so much. My grandmother taught me that you have to put your mind to things, and just get them done. She made me understand the true meaning of consistency. She taught me that if you do something over and over and train your mind to stick to good habits, good thoughts all the time, then you can keep your life feeling more in order, and happier. She always tells me how we must find the light at the end of every tunnel, even if it is a scary or long tunnel, there will always be light at the end of it. We just have to get to the end of it to find it. I honestly believe she is the reason why I have had so much self growth lately, why I can see such a negative situation and automatically flip it and find the good in it so that I don't worry much about its negative aspects. I am very spiritually aligned because of all of her beautiful stories, and talks we have had. She is also most definitely the reason I have super crazy cleaning OCD. Do not leave a bed unmade around me, because I will make it even if bedtime is right around the corner.
My mother is the epitome of selfless. She is the most selfless person I have ever met. She will bend over backwards to make the people around her happy, and comfortable. She finds happiness in seeing others around her happy. Many times she has put her own happiness to the side just to see everyone else happy. I really acknowledge her for that, for her unconditional way of showing love. She forgives easily, and that kind of vulnerability is beyond fearless to me. Everyone sees vulnerability as a weakness, when in reality I consider to it be the complete opposite. Being vulnerable is saying I know you can hurt me but I am going to do it anyway, because my heart wont allow anything other than selflessness. She is the reason why I am exactly the same! I have a very open heart, and I care too much, I love too hard, I forgive too easily, and I understand every side of a story. It may harm me to be a person this vulnerable at times, but I realize that it comes with so many life lessons, and it makes me feel good at the end of it all. I believe that God notices this and the blessings come in abundance for people who just love like Jesus. That is exactly what my mom does! She kept going even when times were hard, and she wanted to give up. She kept her free spirit , and her positive outlook even when she felt like she was all alone, in a world that was bringing her down. She was given many thunderstorms but still waited for the rainbow to shine bright after them. When she was told about her epilepsy, and that they found an aneurysm in her brain, she didn't let it stop her from living her life. I honestly have no idea how she did it, over and over again. The world would kick her down, and she still put a smile on her face and kept her head up! Being around a strong woman like this, it was inevitable that I wouldn't take it all in and use it in my own life, in my own obstacles. She is the reason I can face the hard stuff, and use it to push me to do better and be better.
So, thank you Mom and Grandma for making me that strong and fearless woman I am today. You guys are the reason that I can do everything I do, and never give up. Because I have you guys to keep me going, and to remind me that everything is possible if you just believe in yourself. I will forever be grateful that you both never stopped helping me grow into the women I have become. Without your guidance and love I couldn't have done it. I love you both, so much! Always.
Happy International Women's Day! XOXO